Fear Factor
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
My aunt (mother's sister) passed away a few days ago (allah yir7amha) and it was a sudden thing. she was in her 60s and she never complained from any sickness until a heart attack claimed her.
the ironic thing about death is the way people react to it. the first question is,, "was she sick?" if the answer is yes you see this weird look of ashamed relief on people's faces ..because they think.. "ok i am not sick.. so i am somehow 'safe' from death"..
then there is the other answer " no she wasn't sick and it was sudden" and you see the pause .. the fear crossing their faces as they think.. "it could have been me.. i could be next" and they start re-evaluating their lives.. wondering if they have done good.. if they are ready.. and of course the answer is NO.
very very few people are actually ready for death.. i remember my grandmother "allah yir7amha" when she was in the beginning of her sickness ,, she said she was ready to die.. this was just after my grandfather passed away and she was very calm about it.. and my mother in law also says she is ready to meet god.. that kind of comfortable confidence is rare,, and somehow i envy it.. as I am not ready.. and don't see myself being ready anytime soon.. i am selfish.. i want to live.. i want to see my child grow up.. i want my husband to grow old with me.. i feel i deserve that.. but we never know what will happen and when it will happen.
may god be with all of us. | 6 comment(s)
