Update: health centers sue their A**
Wednesday, April 26, 2006



ok as u must have figured,, this is an update.. which deserves a whole separate post.. yesterday I talked to my sister in law who is a pedatritian. and explained to her my son's condition and the medication they prescribed for me..

apparently the cream they gave me is too strong and can cause brown spots to appear on his skin if he is exposed to the sun while he has the cream on !!! and the drops is too strong for his age and any overdosage can seriously harm him,, i actually had my suspicions about this as i read the labels and even went back to the doctor telling her it says 1 year and above ,, and she said no its ok.. just use a smaller dosage !!

I am soo angry so annoyed what if someone couldn't bother to read the labels? or to go for a second opinion?? ,, i am planning on writing a formal complaint letter to the minsitry of health and i am going to make sure it reaches the higher authorities.. this kind of negligence can't go on..


update: i took my son to a pediatrition and he told me that this rash is not from food but rather a bacteria infection that is blocking his ears, nose and is congesting his chest a bit. i listened to his chest with the doctor and i could hear the abnormal breathing sound within.. and he was scratching his ear but i didn't really think it was significant. i am glad the doctor spotted this and i gave my son the prescribed medicine and he's doing better now al 7amdullilah.

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Health Centers my A** !!
Tuesday, April 25, 2006



Today i decided (mistakenly) to take my son to one of the health centers as he has a rash on his face and body.. so i thought.. okk since they are open from 7:30 and i need to be at work by 9:30 and the private clinics open later.. i'll take him there for a check up... WRONG MOVE..

i arrived there just before 8:30 found myself the last inline behind 15 other women.. with one doctor on duty.. i still thought ,, ok i'll wait no prob.. because usually the pediatritian is very good ( another thing ,, all the good doctors are not Omani !! what a shame).. by the time it was my turn it was 10:30 and the doctor decided to take a break !! so i had to wait another half an hour ,, the doctor finally came back.. and she was one lazy omani lady (not even the doctor i wanted to see).. sooo busy typing in her computer.. so i am explaining to her that my son has this weird rash and that he didn't eat anything different .. all she does is go "aha.. ok.. aha.. hold on a sec" and continues typing in her computer.. then tells me ,, "ok go take the medicine "

i give her this totally blank look.. because i think maybe i didn't hear her well.. i ask her again and she says " go take the medicine" i say "what medicine??" and she then looks all bothered and explains to me the medicine she wants me to give my son.. one cream and one drop.. i say "aren't u even going to examine him?? " she's like "no need" WTF!!!! (excuse me)...

i just got so disgusted and left.. i am going to a private clinic tonight.. serves me right for being so stupid and going there in the first place..

btw i arrived at work at 11:30 and was on the phone the whole time trying to get some deals done because i was late.

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Another one of my old writings.
Thursday, April 20, 2006



It seems like another person in another lifetime wrote this... i never realised how sad i used to be.

"However long"

As I sit here lonely
I listen to the rain tapping against the window
And I seem to remember
The sound of my silent tears falling to the ground
I wonder whether the sun will shine in my heart again
Or if keeps on raining forever
And if the sun shines
Will it keep on shining?

So many questions left unanswered
And so many answers without questions
I shall wait for my heart to stop bleeding
To stop asking questions
I shall wait until's it's ready to love again
Ready to share, to give
And to answer all those questions
I shall wait
However long it takes.

3rd October 1996

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My brother the balloon boy
Tuesday, April 18, 2006



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While sitting at my parent's house yesterday watching my son play with my sister's birthday helium balloon.. we remembered my brother who used to be obsessed with balloons ( and still is i think - some balloons in his artwork) and i felt very nostalgic (again i know!!! signs of getting older).

My brother was this positively cute chubby little kid whose big eyes would go all red if he didn't get a balloon from the exhibition when we went as kids. I now wonder why my parents ever refused a child such a small thing.. kids nowadays ask for playstations etc when all he wanted was a 1 rial helium balloon.

I remember saving up from my allowance so that i can buy him the balloon as i couldn't bear to see him crying or sad. I fell in love with my bro from the moment i first saw him. I still remember when my mother brought him back from the hospital very very clearly although i was only 2 and a hald years old !!

this is dedicated to my brother who will always be that balloon boy in my eyes. May god guide him in his life and may he find peace within.

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My new Template



My new template is coool... so cool.. and yes i can keep on saying that all day. Many thanks to Sam for creating this template for me ! Thanks :D

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Comparison
Sunday, April 16, 2006



Ever since I became a mother this issue of comparison has been bugging the hell out of me. I get comments from people that say.. oh my son was fatter or my son was more active or my son used to sleep all throughout the night. My son ate more bla bla bla and every time I hear these comments I just groan inwardly and think here we go again !!

A couple of weeks back I was visiting a relative, and her son is two weeks younger than mine. My son who is 6 and a half months old has started to attempt crawling, and I mean a proper crawl where he lifts his body and moves forwards rather than slither on his stomach as some kids do, he’s been in this phase for sometime now and when this “relative” saw him she was like.. “ur son is crawling am sure then he will be late in teething” keep in mind her son hasn’t even turned over yet but that’s because he’s a cute chubby baby (god bless him) ! anyways she got shocked when I told her two of his teeth have already come out… then you could see her looking for some other thing to say to compare ,, I just moved away and changed the subject..

This doesn’t bother me personally much, but I wonder how it will be for my son and hers being compared to each other all the time.. I remember hating being compared to one of my cousins as a child and we ended up not being touch at all now, as I am sure everyone hates comparison. .. and I don’t want him to face that, but what can I do?? I guess I will just have to deal with it as it comes.

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My Destiny??
Sunday, April 09, 2006



There is a saying in Arabic “Faqid alshai2 la yu36eeh” (damn no Arabic keyboard).

This saying basically means if “you don’t have something then you can’t give it” (stupid translation but go along with me) and it refers to emotions and feelings. It follows the reasoning that for example if you have never experienced a happy home life then you will never know how to provide a happy home life to your family..

If you never felt love from your parents you will not know how to love your children..
If you were never taught how to say sorry you will never learn it and you will be rigid..
If you ..well I think you got my point ,,

I was discussing this with someone the other day and she said she believes in this saying to a great extent and even gave me examples about some people surrounding her that explained her way of thinking.. and even of people in my life.. and I couldn’t argue that she was wrong..

We talked about someone who was raised under a controlling father with no affection but was so emotional and loving with her kids.. until these kids made a mistake and eventually this woman turned to a bitter hard woman just like the man her father was..

And then we discussed me.. how my childhood wasn’t the greatest and my parents not the most affectionate and how no one in my house ever learned to really express their feelings or say sorry when they were wrong..

I have come a long way from there.. and I show all the love to my husband and son because I was never shown it in the way that I dreamed of.. so in my case I am actually trying to be the total opposite of the environment I was raised in..

But I worry ,, what if one day I “revert” to this other person who is not affectionate, stubborn and non compromising.. what if I one day prove that proverb true no matter how much I try to fight it.. what if it’s my destiny??

It’s been on my mind for a few days now and I can’t seem to shake it off.. only time will tell.

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Footprints
Thursday, April 06, 2006



I read this a long long time ago.. and it stuck to my mind so i thought of sharing it here..

One night a man had a dream.
He dreamed he was walking along the beach with God.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.
For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints
in the sand: one belonging to him and the to God.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him,
he looked back at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path of his life,
there was only one set of footprints.
He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.

This really bothered him and he questioned God about it.
"God, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way.
But i have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you the most, you would leave me"

God replied, "my precious child, I love you and I would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints,
it was then I carried you".

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Tagged !!
Wednesday, April 05, 2006



Seven things I plan to do:

1.concentrate on my faith more and hopefully take that further step and go to haj inshallah.
2.Raise my son/children to the best of my ability and never burden them with my problems.
3.Travel around europe by train ! my dream.
4.Start eating healthier and exercising (hopefully gain weight)
5.Write a book one day
6.Never live in the past and look towards the future
7.Change my career to something that will fill my soul and not just my pockets ! (as if it does anyway).

Seven things I can do:

1. Control my temper (not 6 years ago though)
2. Cook !!
3. My friends say I can look at them and see inside their soul ( lol will keep making them believe that)
4. be a very good listener and can always look at a situation from more than one angle.
5. Do a good French manicure job.
6. Remember things that happened when i was four years old
7. Forget the world when i look into my son's eyes and believe anything is possible when i look into my husband's eyes.

Seven things I can't do:

1. DRAW .. anything I am so bad .. unless i am using a ruler !
2. Lie ! I always get caught.
3. Walk on high thin heels ! I just can’t - balance issue
4. Aim, whenever I throw something it goes in the totally opposite direction ! imagine everyone's annoyance
5. Roller or Ice Skate ( again balance issue !!)
6. Stand the smell of raw fish – I never cook it.
7. Hide my feelings

Seven things I say most often:

1. yeah right
2. ya3ni
3. I type lol ...a lot.
4. okkk
5. why do you say that?
6. I think
7. Inshallah

I Tag FerreroRoche and Nabhan ,, waiting eagerly for your answers

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Ten years since high school !!
Sunday, April 02, 2006



Since the beginning of the year I can’t seem to get over the fact that by June this year it will be ten years since I graduated from high school.. TEN YEARS.!!!

I don’t know why I keep thinking about it.. I mean I don’t regret anything that I have done or experienced in the last ten years.. I am happy with my accomplishments so far.. and I think I am relatively where I thought I would be ten years ago.. but still it’s shocking to realize that it’s been 10 years since those days…

Ever since I realized this I’ve been remembering my high school days and my first days and months in the UK ten years ago..

I remember the sense of excitement and youth,, wanting to experience everything new (within limits of course) having idealistic dreams of university life (watched too many movies) and getting shocked by the reality of life in the UK.. the racism.. feeling like a social outcast.. but in the same just enjoying being totally FREE..

free from the boundaries of society mostly .. going out alone is ok.. eating what you choose.. sleeping when you chose to.. going to the cinema, shopping, even deciding to take a walk in the crisp cool air.. I miss that I guess to some extent.. ahh to be young again.. or to be transported back for one day lol.. that would be something..

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