Friends ?? or Acquaintances??
Thursday, March 30, 2006



It's taken me 15 years if not more to really comprehend this distinction. I was sitting with a bunch of friends yesterday and someone mentioned a memeber of our "gang" who was missing and it finally clicked in my head that this member was never a friend but merely an acquantaince and I feel like I have finally given up on her..

and I got to thinking about the true meaning of friendship and how loosly we use this term in our everyday lives..

a friend is supposed to be someone you share yourself with, your dreams, hopes, worries and also someone who knows at least generally what's going on in your life no matter how busy you are.. you know how their family are doing and if anyone is ill and if they are travelling or here..and stories about their childhood..

I used to think I had friends in that sense..but coming to think of it.. We (as in my old high school gang) meet up from time to time.. laugh and talk.. but most of our conversation is remembering high school advantures and the rest is general.. I get shocked everytime by how little I really know about the people around me..

I realise that my best friend always kept something of herself back.. which is her nature and I understand that.. but it surprises me thati only knew by coincidence that she is going away for a few weeks in the summer.. which maybe years ago I would have been one of the first to know..its a silly thing sure.. but it just makes me realise where I stand..

I found out that another 'friend' was ill and in the hospital and I knew nothing about it..

I found out that well.. the list could go on..

Maybe I am the one who has drifted away from them but the reality is that conversations have become stilted when we all sit together and I guess that's why we hide behind the high school stories..

That's not to say we aren't friends..but its the level of friendship that dissapoints me..


All this makes me realise how alone I really am.. if it wasn't for my husband and son.. my life would be really empty..

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1 comment(s):

Haay Gurll,, and where did i go?
:(

After reading Oracle's comment i feel god! How talking about the thing makes it much clear and much much relaxing as you might get an answer which is so relaxing as Oracle's when u think that you would get a hurting reply or just no reply ..

ThanxXx to god, i still didnt loose connection with my true friends or best freinds,, Although i am or we are not in touch as we used to be .. i mean we talk , meet, hangout and much more all lesser than what we used to do b4.. But never the less i always feel the same warmth when i think of them ,, i knw deep down that there are there for me.. Those freinds are the ones whom u knw that they would love u even if u do nothing for them! I mean there are not there coz they need sth from you.. They are there coz they want to be with you.. they love and care about u without any other reason then just having u as a freind..

I made freinds during my school days and Uni days..

Somehow my school freinds are my bestest freinds.. with them i feel so relaxed.. although alot of times their couldnt help me for some reason or the other.. either coz of their family or other responsibilities.. but still i dont feel an ouch towards that,, i feel its just they really cudnt help! By this i mean alot of times we have to excuse our freinds and this excusing thingi is not just an excuse but really it also shows how u also contribute in this freindship ..and how u try to save it and make it go on and get stronger as time goes..

B4 reading Oracle's comment i also used to feel same like u gurl but this feeling was towards my u know our Uni gang .. still that feeling is there twards some of the gurls -but anywayz i never felt that i am a true freind or even a freind -- but now at least i knw that those gurls who i thought we are freinds for ever , we are still freinds and its just as Oracle said .. all got involved in different things and if we r not talking as we shud then its not coz they r not in touch but also i am not in touch as i shud be :)

Life isnt that bad haaa.. u need to have only one true freind at least ..

But U gurl Have more than one am sure ;)

NB: Me = ur freind = 10 freinds otherwise ..he3 he3 kidding gurll :)

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